This is your life......

“This is your life, are you who you want to be

This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be”

-switchfoot

I have been blessed with an amazing life, an amazing husband, family, and friends..

When I talk about the above lyrics im talking more so about my career life? or lack there of ;)

I want to do something with my life that I am proud of.

I want to do something that I enjoy.

Recently we have had a few lay-offs at our office.

It has me so stressed and worried.

Every day I go in and Im in a bad mood.

I know that I am meant for something else.

I believe God gave me a creative heart for a reason.

And I feel like I am wasting it.

However, I know that I am so fortunate to even have a job right now

And I think that is what is holding me back from taking a step anywhere outside of my little box.

My husband is always encouraging me to take a leap and go for something

But it always comes down to me thinking about money and a mortgage!

Oh that lovely mortgage! :)

I have a few Dreams of my own.....

I would love to eventually go somewhere with my photography

Right now school is too much with working full time, only because all of the art classes are 3 hours long x2 a week. So 2 classes would take up an entire week in which case I would work from 8-5 and have class from 6-9, or 7-10 everyday.

mmm, not a fan

Im thinking of taking weekend classes in the city.

But they can get pricey too.

I want to do something that will enable me to be home with my kids when the time comes.

My mom was able to stay home with us and I love the though of that.

I know it is not always plausable but im crossing my fingers for the future :)

Anyway, Sorry for a semi-downer post.

Just something I've been thinking about lately.

Hope all of you have such a wonderful day!!!!

Im stoked for this weekend. A Wedding and Pierogi Fest!!